9 MONTHS AFTER YOU LEFT ME

 Teary eyes ... I am writing to pour out my feelings.

Celebrating life and being grateful to Allah for all the blessings ... but being very human of me, I am feeling alone.. though being surrounded by five children and a granddaughter every single day..

Life is just so different without you Honey.. I am yet to overcome missing you every single day.. 

I didn't expect to feel like this.. who would anyway.. you went away so suddenly .. leaving me helpless and lonely.

The children are so protective but I felt so much safer with only you protecting me.. oh Honey.. I miss you so much.

Only you (besides Allah) can understand and tolerate me.. 

Today I am feeling very upset with the children .. I can't face them. Alhamdulillah.. I have Allah to help me comfort my sadness.

I pray everyday that Allah will place you in comfort ... waiting for the time when we will be reunited.. insyaa Allah..

I will never stop loving you Honey..thank you for taking care of me for the past 31 over years...

You will always be in my prayers.. I hope you forgive me for giving you difficult times sometime... 

TUTUN HAS GROWN UP

Thank you Allah for giving me seven beautiful children.  All are grown ups now.. alhamdulillah.. 
Tutun just finished form three and looking forward to starting the journey away from home.

Receiving certificate and award from the Principal

Apek sharing the joyous moment.

May Allah continue to bless Tutun with all the good things in life and The Hereafter.. amin..

WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON???

Salam to myself... may Allah bless me and my family..

Well it is going to be five months into the year 2014.. what have I done so far??
My main mission is to elevate the SPM results.. I don't know how far I am into the "mission"
with all the distractions.  

I am preparing modules to be done by my students during the long holidays which will
start on next Tuesday.. How much are these modules going to help them will very much
depends on how willing they are to struggle and work them out.  I do not want them to 
wait for the answers from me when the break is over..

Their mid year examinations results are nothing to be proud of ... in fact they are giving
me the chills.. are the officials from the education department coming again to see us
next year??

Wake up dear students!!!

17TH RAMADHAN @ NUZUL QURAN

Alhamdulillah, Allah has blessed me with another chance of being able to meet this holy month. Today is the 17th day of the fasting month and in fact a very important day in the Islamic history. I have a lot of self reflections these days and I am being more appreciative of this "short" life.

I will continue to pray to Allah to bless my family in this world and the Hereafter... Amin..

DAILY REFLECTION

Today is 27th Rejab and I attended a talk on Israk and mikraj. I also read a few related postings in a few blogs.. I read the same article over and over again over the years every time 27th Rejab surfaces. Each time I read it I felt that the facts are still fresh to me. This year, as I mellow with age, my feelings is touched by the very same facts. I almost shed my tears thinking that I have not done enough to deserve Allah's heaven but at the same time, I do not think I am able to bear Allah's hell fire..

The Ustaz mentioned about not many people cry when reciting 'zikr' or 'istighfar'... O Allah.. I have cried a lot in my prayers these days.. I felt extremely grateful to YOU for answering most of my prayers.. I sometimes think that I don't deserve what YOU granted me but again I strongly believe that YOU will answer my sincerest prayers.. I always believe that YOU are so bountiful and merciful... I will continue praying and hope that YOU will never stop answering my prayers...

CUTI NI ADA PROJEK KAT RUMAH AJE..

Today is the fourth day of the mid year break.. Had classes on Saturday and today.. The rest of week I will just stay at home and clean and tidy up the house.. Friday will be the first of Rejab and if everything goes fine, I will fast (Allah willing..).

I was thinking of compiling PMR questions for the students' use in their revision in late July.. before the trial examinations. I hope I will be consistent in my effort and finish my plan by mid of June..

I don't think I will be able to do this again.. at least for this year..

JUST A DAILY REFLECTION..

Today I taught my students about vectors.. well.. quite an abstract concept. However I hope I have made it simple for them by making it looks like "peanuts" and not "mathematics"..

Vectors are simply lines with a certain length (magnitude) and a certain direction (usually indicated by an arrow). To find its magnitude, always try imagining a right angled triangle with the vector as the hypotenuse. I guess it always help to start out by writing the "square root" sign and finding the sum of squares of the x and y components of the vector. Wow! That sounds complicated.. Well at least when I do it on the board, its not that bad..

I always pray that my students will absorb at least 60% of my daily input.. plus they have to carry out and complete the reinforcement exercises which follow all the explanations..